I chaired the critique group this morning, and that went well. It's usually pretty draining -- the cost of being an introvert -- but afterwards, I actually managed to get nerved up to walk over to Fat Dan's and enjoy a late lunch with Tam. (Adequate coleslaw -- look, I'm judgemental about that dish because I like it -- and a very good toasted pastrami and corned beef sandwich on rye, with Swiss cheese and brown mustard.)
It might not sound like much, but it's been months since I had a meal out -- and months since I walked that far. I'm having a lot of trouble with social anxiety these days, and with my knees, and it's much too easy for me to just avoid it all: to have minimal social interaction, not go to new places, order online as much as possible and avoid physical exertion. I'm trying to break those habits, reinforced during the pandemic (except for walking -- Tam and I were taking daily walks around the block for a couple of years), and it's slow going.
One step at a time. I can do this. I've done it in the past. The knees get better when I get out there and interact with the world, and so does my ability to deal with people.
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1 year ago
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Exactly. The more you use your knees the more supple they become. Think "self lubricating joint". I have gone through exactly the problems you describe. So much easier to stay inside-and miss so much.
Roberta, I completely understand staying at home. Most weeks I get out only once or twice to get the absolutely necessary errands run (medical appointments, groceries, library....) although I've recently re-started going to a gym for exercise.
John, I'm waiting for the "self lubricating" to check in. I've noticed in my 4 trips to the gym, so far, that I can hear & feel the grating in my knees. Not a comforting sound.
Know the feeling. I was flat on my back in hospital for 4 1/2 months, and could only walk 25 steps when released. Now (2 years later) up to 5 miles a day on bike in summer and a mile a day on foot in winter, but it was a long process with daily effort.
Your progress is impressive, John. Good on you!
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