No, I can't write it, not yet. "Back to normal?" Not going to happen. I can't call up Mom. She was there forever, as far as I knew, and now she isn't.
Both of my parents were hypercompetent people. At least it seemed that way to me as a child, as a young adult. Even with maturity (such of it as I have found) and time to provide scale and perceptive, they were outstanding. Baffled by their children sometimes, but what parent isn't?
I started this blog about six months after my father passed away. Now Mom is gone. Sometimes I still want to ask a grownup what to do -- and then I remember that's my job now.
10 months ago